Saffy - Its hard when you think about what could have been. Im sorry it was a sad day for you yesterday.

Tascha - I hope you are feeling physically much better now. Emotionally, it will take much longer. I hope you are finding ways to cope.

Marchuke - Sorry for your loss. I hope you are coping as well.

Alison - Im sorry for your loss. I hope you are feeling better now that the bleeding has settled.

Everyone else - Hi, I hope you are all ok

AFM - I got a BFP last week. Im far from excited though, just scared and panicky. I did another HPT yesterday at 18DPO and got a strong positive (darker than the control line) and today I did another one. It is the same darkness as yesterday (shouldnt it be darker?). I cant help but think this is going to end badly again. I dont have many symptoms except for heavy cramping in my abdomen, which I know can be normal, but also can be the start of a m/c. I should probably get some blood tests done but I dont want to know the results. I dont want to hear that the numbers are going down. I guess 3 m/c in a row has affected me more than I realised. If I loose this one too I'll be shattered and Im not sure how on earth I will pick up the pieces.