HI OC

I am really sorry you have to go through this. Its really unpleasant to say the least and totally unfair. My thoughts are with you.

I know I cant make it better for, but I hope you muddle through it and feel a bit better soon. I can only relay my experience in an effort to help you along. I had a miscarriage a few months ago as well. After a week or 2 I thought I was on top of it and moving forward to the future with positivity. How wrong I was. I understood all the statistics, the process, the advice from many websites, but what I hadnt prepared myself for, nor was i expecting, was the lashing out at my friends and loved ones, and the rage I felt.

I thought I was in the clear, relatively undamaged and with the determination to move forward and accomplish what I was entitled to.

It was hard and I was not a very nice person during this time. I didnt even like myself because of the way I treated those around me. It took me a little while to realise why I was being like that and where it was coming from. I was able to kurb my reactions a little better once I understood.

All I can say is that you cant fight the roller coaster. You just have to go with it and keep your eyes open. If you snap at someone or are being a little bit insensitive, don't be too hard on yourself. What you have to process is tough. really tough.

Sorry for babbling on but I just hate seeing people in pain and not being able to help.

big hugs
CT