I just wanted to say something about the 'not experiencing motherhood' thing. Thing is, you HAVE experienced motherhood, it's just that your experience hasn't been as lovely and as rosy as other peoples. Losing a child is the worst - no matter what age. - and you have lost several.

Your feelings are much the same as mine have been. I hate that people ignore my losses, and that they are very...weird...around me whenever I'm pregnant. People don't like to think about death and pregnancy in the same sentence, and it's sad that this means that they aren't able to support you.