Michelle, there is nothing anyone can say that will make things any easier for you. the path you have to walk now is yours alone, and i'm sure i'm not alone is saying that my heart is breaking for you. you have the support of so many people here on BB, and i'm sure so many IRL. it will take time for your heart to heal even a little, time to find your new "normal" and time for you and your children to adapt - and we are all here for you.

take care,

BG