The fallout

[Muffy]

Wow, Your post really got to me...
I cant even begin to imagine the physical and emotional pain you are going through right now. You may not feel like you are being 'strong' BUT you are still there for your children, they are still getting the care they need and most importantly you are still nurturing your little bubba inside you. Even if you are only 'just' being able to do it, it still a lot more than some people would be able to handle right now.
I will also agree with the other ladies, there are NO rules..
If you need to break down and cry - do it.
If you need to scream - do it.
If you just need to sleep - do it.

Please try not to bottle things up and put on a 'front' as you mentioned. People need to know your not ok!! It will give everyone a chance to help you out and also help you through this extremly difficult time.
My thoughts are with you