Monnie - sorry to see you go (for a while at least). Have been contemplating the same myself, for the same reasons and others. Hope to see you back one day soon.
OK, this post might be a bit TMI but here goes...
I've lost my mojo...it's seriously gone and doesn't look like it's returning!! DTD is just NOT on my list of priorities. I have to force myself - poor DH. He is very understanding but it can't be much fun for him. I keep waiting for it to come back but it just isn't. After 3 prg's in 3 years, m/c, surgeries, IVF, 9 months of self imposed abstinence while prg with L (I just couldn't handle the bleeding that would always follow) etc etc I just don't feel the same way about my body. I don't feel sexy AT ALL. I still feel broken. DH tells me to stop thinking about it but since L's birth I'm thinking about it more than ever. He made a joke last night about how often we used to DTD when we were trying to conceive L - I ended up bawling my eyes out. This incredible sadness just came over me and I couldn't stop it. DH tells me to stop thinking about it, that we won, we have our beautiful son. I agree 100% with that but it doesn't change the way I feel about ME. I see the scars every day in the shower. It's OK for him, he could quite easily go out and have more children if he wanted to. I can't. I never thought it would bother me after we had L but it really is. Is it ever going to go away?
Don't get me wrong, life is great and it's not like this is overwhelming me or anything, but it seems to be directly linked to DTD and I just feel so sad about it.
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