I remember being so excited when those 2 lines came up on the stick, and when DH hugged me we were both shaking. When we had our first scan around 6 weeks and saw the heartbeat, DH was just so proud, but me, I was like "Oh, ok, there it is" I didn't feel connected at all.
I don't think I bought anything for quite a while too. DH was the one pushing for nappy bags and clothes. We put a change table on layby about 3 and half months before DS was due lol! And that was only because DH picked it up and walked off with it.
I too didn't like chatting to people about my pregnancy. My IL's were shockers, they were forever talking about friends of my BIL who had success with IVF, but how the mum was dissapointed it was 1 baby after they had 2 embryos put back, and how she should have been appreciative. I copped flack from my MIL when I tried to share my feelings on how I was worried about doing the injections, her supportive words were "I don't understand, if you want a baby, you just do it" (the injections)
You know, I was at my happiest with my pregnancy when i was either chatting to DH about DS, or he had his hand on my tummy, and also when i was chatting here on BB.
After DS was born, I posted in the parenting after LTTTC, about how he was so full on with not sleeping, screaming and wanting to be held all the time, how I felt bad after what we went through to have him and I was wishing he would just be quiet.
Willow replied with a beautiful post - as did the other girls - that made me cry ( happy tears though) it was nice to know that I was feeling normal, and it was ok. I think we feel like we can't be seen like we are being unappreciative of our IVF babies, afterall, this is what we wanted wasn't it? (Thanks MIL)
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