Dear Kellee, Jillian, Shannon and Melissa

Thank you so much for your support.

Well I went to the counselling session and it was amazing.

Kellee you were right, there are some really strong underlying issues that I would not have realised if I had not gone to see her.

I am going to be pretty general but there was lots of stuff around my femineity and being proud of the kind of women that I am, along with some second sibling issues.

The femineity issue was the big one, so I am going to keep going to she the counsellor so that I can resolve it and move pass it.

I am feeling so much better about having a boy, as I have realised that it wasn't that I didn't want a boy to the extreme that I thought I did, but that I had so much tied to having a girl. Just knowing this has made me feel so much better, as I just couldn't understand why I felt so against it. I am still not over the moon about having a boy but I am defiantly feeling better about it.

I hope that if any body else comes across this forum and feels how I did, please go and see someone because you might find that it has nothing to do with the sex of your child, but something different. Also the big thing that both the counsellor and you girls have said, is that it is OK to feel disappointed, that you aren’t the devil for feeling this way. I know for me that really helped. Because the feelings that you have towards yourself I think are worst than anything else.

I still want a girl, so here's hoping I can have the pigeon pair, but if I don’t I am hoping that it will become less important.

Thank you so much again for your support,

Morgan