Oh i forgave him years ago, to his face - he was abused too, i'm sure his abusing me was a natural response if not pleasant for me. My mum's dead so i'm not angry at her, what's the point? SHe did great in some areas and we loved each other, i think she just couldn't cope with it all, you know? I still feel sad sometimes at what happened, but i'm far more angry for instance that my dad was left out of the loop than from my point of view. He was so hurt.

I guess you don't know how you'll feel about stuff until it happens. I mean, just now i know how i want to be when Smee tells me she's going on the pill, but will i actually be that way when it happens? LOL. Time will tell i guess.

Bx