Hi Bel,
Thanks so much for your post! Its reassuring to know that other ppl understand what Im feeling! It sure is hard for me to even understand how i really feel about it all half the time! I think the last 2 bubs in the family, plus this pg really affected me more than I woudl normally let it because DH is away in Iraq - less than 2 weeks til he's home now tho, so once he's back it might get better. At least then i wont have the frustration of wanting to TTC, but not having DH in teh same country! Its amazing how all the little things combine with the huge things, and it ends up being the little things that really play on your mind...

I totally agree with the jealousy thing. Thats something i even have trouble admitting to myself tho. For some reason Im not comfortable labelling it as jealousy - but thats really what it is!

Bel i really hope you get your BFP, i have my fingers and toes crossed for you! I hope the TTC after m/c and loss doesnt become your home - I hope you get to move waaaay past here very soon

Again, thanks so much for your words, it really does help!
Bec
xx