Nicole - HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you enjoy your birthday. Even though what you're feeling is natural, you're not a failure. I'm sure you done loads of stuff that you never planned to do by 30. Maybe try to appreciate those things and all the people who love you.

But I know its easier said than done. I turned 30 last month, and felt like this was the first big thing I'd failed at (except for English in year 7!).

Satya & Claireabel - Belated good luck for the tests. How'd you go?!?!
Shellbell & Lee - Wish I could speed up you TWWs
Nikilove - it must be a tough month for you. Have you passed the EDD? please feel free to express your feelings here. You'll get loads of support and no judgement whatsoever.
Welcome Sandie. I'm sorry for your loss. Feel free to express your feelings & vent here. Everyone here is lovely, and you can take all the time & space you need here.
Shoegal - LOL! You can post here even if you're not ttc yet. No one's going to dob you in to your doc. I'm glad you're in a better place though. The first few weeks are really hard. But it does get easier, and I admire your braveness.

Salt - sweetheart I hate to see you down. I know exactly what you mean though. I have images that flash before me that torture me. Immeasurably happy ones and inexpressibly miserable ones. You're right its not fair. Don't you just sometimes want to drop to the floor and chuck a tantrum?

But I know its going to work out for you. I do hope you start feeling more positive. Has AF stopped for you yet?

Bun - Thanks for the advice (re reminding yourself of the positives of not being pg). That really helped me today. I was convinced AF was coming cos I had a headache & cramps.

Wow a holiday in Spain & Paris sounds like a great positive! Hey, you're going to be in my neck of the woods, are you coming to London at all?

"maybe your baby will be conceived in the city of love?". And if its a girl, you can call her Paris! Oh wait, you probably don't want to be mum to a slapper

Me? I've given way to peer pressure and am going to test either tonight or tomorrow morning. Either way it will be good news. If its a BFP, obviously I'll be ecsatic (and I'll be going home). If its a BFN, I am going to open the giant cider in the fride, make a brie, tomato & basil salad and eat an entire jar of potted meat. Then I will plan something that pg ppl cannot do like skydiving (though knowing me, it'll be to do with eating).