Hi guys,

Lee - so sorry to hear about your boy. I definitely agree re med neg (I am a lawyer); it definitely sounds like he should have been seen asap if he was having breathing problems. You poor thing - it must be so awful to hear that news and find out how easy it would have been to prevent this from happening if they had done the right thing. I am thinking of you today sweetie

Sharon - sorry to hear the tests aren't getting any darker, but keep in mind that tests do not measure the amount of HCG, just whether any HCG is present or not, and also, in some pregnancies HCG goes up quicker than in others. Just out of interest, how long is your LP? If this does turn out to be a chem pg (and I am not saying that it is), then a likely cause of chem pgs is a short LP, and that can be easily treated. If this does turn out to be another chem pg, I would definitely ask to see a FS asap to discuss this with them. It may be as simple as taking a small amount of clomid (as I am), or some other drug to lengthen your LP and prevent it from happening again. Best of luck that this one does turn out well, though! I know how you are feeling right now, and please, vent away if you need to - it helps! And try to remember, it is not over yet!!

Salt - yay, it looks like you O'ed yesterday! Woo hoo!!! Now for the TWW. Best of luck for this cycle - I think things are definitely looking up for you this cycle, and I am looking forward to hearing of your BFP!!!

Leyla - I am not sure what is going on with your temps. 20DPO, no AF and BFNs sounds a bit strange, although Salt is right, temping is not 100% accurate, and apparently for some women, it does not work at all. Also, you only have a hatched coverline, so it is possible that FFs O date is wrong (although it looks right to me). I suppose just give it a few more days and see your dr if still no AF or BFP. How long are your cycles normally?

mummyto1 (soon to be mummyto2)- I hope I have the same luck as you on my first round of clomid and will be joining you in the world of pg asap!

Hi to everyone else.

I had my next BT this morning, although I don't think much is happening yet, as I am only on CD9. I would soooo love to O somewhere close to CD14 for once and am really hoping it happens. Apparently most women on clomid will, so I am crossing my fingers. I am a bit confused, as although AF finished on Tues, last night and today I am having some spotting (brown blood), which is unusual. I am not sure if this is normal or not or if I should be worried? It is only a small amount, but this is not usual for me. Anyone have any ideas? I am also feeling a bit down (again - I sound like a broken record these days). I think it is because the EDD of my first loss is next tues, and I keep seeing heavily pg women around and thinking that should be me; I should be about to go into labour any time now, and instead here I am. I really really thought I would be pg by the time my EDD came around, and never expected to be here, recovering from my second loss and having BTs galore and appointments, etc, and STILL TTC. I am also feeling really hopeless, like it will never work out. I just can't get my brain to believe that it could be ok next time. The chance of my next pg making it to term is 75 - 80% (and that figure is from my specialist), so I should believe that it will work. How do I make my stupid brain believe that!