Alex - thanks for all the info and hugs . There's so many questions...... I have made an appointment with my GP to go over the detailed final autopsy report next week (they won't send it to me, plus it's all medical jargon anyway). So, hopefully then I will know more. I can't even say for sure if my fluid was tested by the doctor when she broke my waters - it's not standard practice in Australia I've been told - some do, some don't. She broke my water about 10am, and I didn't deliver until 9pm, and had a bath in that time. I've a strong feeling bubs caught an infection in that time. I've now got another OB who is competent - and he said there's a couple of main reasons for infection - and one is the Group B Strep you suggest (in fact this account for the majority of causes of pneumonia in newborns) and the other is a staff type infection. Yes, they did tell me the baby did not test positive for GBS - as for me - I really don't know. My new OB ordered numerous blood tests on me the other week, and he called me today to say that I'm perfectly fine, no sign of anything.

Whatever happened to my baby - it happened during labour and delivery - and he went downhill quickly after that.

It's a relief to know what happened to him - at least I can call it something now - not SIDS. But it makes me very very angry too - but my hubby and I will be directing our anger carefully and making sure it hits the exact target - I know I have to do this for our boy - and others after him...

His name is Luc.

Well - still on track for a honeymoon conception - I hope you are right too!!

Bun - thanks for your kind words and encouragement. I've been in touch with a med neg lawyer in Melbourne - it's obvious we have a case. First we have to finish our dealings with the Coroner. And Bun - you are a healthy woman - you will have a healthy baby. I tell you, and I don't know why - but the road to happiness for some of us can be a longer and more challenging road than for others. What I have learnt is that, although this can be a pain in the ar...e, it also means the rewards are greater, far greater for us when we get them. So, hang in there, I know it will happen for you soon, you are so worthy.

Sharon - hang in there too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yep, maybe let it go for a day or two, hopefully you will get some more "signs" - and re-test on the weekend. for you xo

Well - my awful AF has nearly finished. I went and had a lovely massage this morning - every part of my body aches - but I feel better for some nice attention - highly recommend one for you all.

Satya - how are you? Wondering about you, as I know you've been emotional. Thinking of you - and I send you good strong vibes xo

Thanks for your kind thoughts.

Lee xo