Oh Beata
You have made me cry again! I feel so... I don't know... happy and sad at the same time. Sad that you have finally finished Joshua's album and you don't have your little boy to hold in your arms, and happy that you're having a transfer in June which is so close. I understand what you mean about not having the strength to post some days. Thank you so much for extending your wonderful hand of support to me. I truly hope that you will be holding your earth baby in your arms very soon
Hey Cheryl, now you have made me all emotional again LOL!!!! You know exactly how I feel. It's so strange, as for a long time after I lost Joshua I didn't mind seeing pg women, little babiest etc. Now, I get really emotional. I look at 3 month olds and wonder what Joshua would have looked like now. I look at pg women and wonder how much they appreciate their babies and their pg. I really think I'm going backwards here!!!
I think it's also because in just a few weeks time I will be starting yet another journey, almost 12 months to the date when I did my first IVF round. And the other thing is also, that my little embie is from the same batch as Joshua, so I can't help but wonder if I am successful in my second attempt, and I have a boy, how much will he remind me of Joshua??? I guess at the end of the day, I will always be sad that my little man isn't here with me, no matter how many, if any, children I have.
Don't worry hun, I will be around and will cheer you on, becasue I want to see all of us succeed and have our earth children. And I know we all will!!
And BTW, your doc's advice on the best and quickest way of conceiving is the same one I got from my doc - go for gold ON REGULAR BASIS and have fun while you're at it! That way you make it enjoyable instread of stressful!!! Godd luck hun, I really hope it happens for you super fast.
Take care hun, big hugs.
Love B xxxx
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