Hi everyone

Berry, Teagz & NaeNae - words cannot express my gratefulness for all of the support, strength and wisdom that you have provided me. It is sad that we are in this situation, but I DO feel like I am a stronger and better person because of it. It certainly does make you re-evaluate what is important in our lives doesn't it?

To everyone else, a big and I hope you are all doing something special for yourselves.

AFM we have had a pretty busy weekend so far but today should be a bit quieter. We went out a few times yesterday which included putting fresh flowers on Ryan's grave as we do every Saturday morning. It was a little sad because there was a new baby buried next to him - now he has Adam and Oscar for angel baby friends to play with. Afterwards DH convinced me to go out for lunch followed by a movie afterwards. It was a long movie (2.5 hours) so I was distracted for quite a while. It was a nice day in all.

Today we splurged and went out for breakfast and now DH is busy trying to plan more of our overseas trip. I say splurged because we now have to buckle down into massive saving mode - having just paid for a wedding and honeymoon, and the medical bills rolling in, we really need to watch out spending so we have some cash when we go away in early August. I can't believe how close it is already. I still haven't worked out what we will do on Ryan's EDD which will happen while we are overseas, most likely in France somewhere. I am thinking that we might let some balloons go, or find a small church somewhere to place some flowers for him (although neither of us is particularly religious so I am not sure how DH would feel about that). Maybe I will see something/somewhere that would be a nice spot for some flowers?

Anyway, I have more domestics to do. Take care all.
Cherylxx