Hey Cheryl, now you have made me all emotional again LOL!!!! You know exactly how I feel. It's so strange, as for a long time after I lost Joshua I didn't mind seeing pg women, little babiest etc. Now, I get really emotional. I look at 3 month olds and wonder what Joshua would have looked like now. I look at pg women and wonder how much they appreciate their babies and their pg. I really think I'm going backwards here!!!
I think it's also because in just a few weeks time I will be starting yet another journey, almost 12 months to the date when I did my first IVF round. And the other thing is also, that my little embie is from the same batch as Joshua, so I can't help but wonder if I am successful in my second attempt, and I have a boy, how much will he remind me of Joshua??? I guess at the end of the day, I will always be sad that my little man isn't here with me, no matter how many, if any, children I have.
Don't worry hun, I will be around and will cheer you on, becasue I want to see all of us succeed and have our earth children. And I know we all will!!
And BTW, your doc's advice on the best and quickest way of conceiving is the same one I got from my doc - go for gold ON REGULAR BASIS and have fun while you're at it! That way you make it enjoyable instread of stressful!!! Godd luck hun, I really hope it happens for you super fast.
Take care hun, big hugs.
Love B xxxx