Trying to Conceive after Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth ~ March 09

[helle]

Thanks heaps, Jos Yeah it did fairly well creap up on us. We both didn't believe it until we got the BT results back.

Beata, that sounds very promising!!!! that you get to start your journey early! Can't wait to hear what your Dr has to say, chick! xx

DD, Woo for beautiful bits! so happy that everything is looking good.

Dee, I hope we get to share some prego months together as well

AFM, had a Dr's appt today and my first U/S is on the 22 May. I'm a little nervous already, and I'm hoping that we see a little heart beat and everything looks ok. So far I have had a tiny little bit of bleeding but nothing abnormal so atm I'm feeling confident.



Sending lots of love and baby dust to everyone

[Miss.B]

Hi Ladies,

I kept crashing last night on belly so I gave up and thought I'd try today from work..

My u/s went well yesterday. The lining is good, but I have decided to wait out the next cycle coming up at the end of this month as I'd like to give the uterus an extra few weeks to heal better. I think I got freaked out when the u/s lady was going over and over the scar tissue area to check the blood flow etc. I got in in my head that is hasn't healed enough even though my OB says it's looking good. The OB said he likes to wait 5 to 6 months after the surgery to do any cycles, so this month would have been 5 months, and in June it will be 6 months (can you believe it????). Even my hubby was insistent I wait the extra few weeks. He was worried that with the vertigo and all, my body needs a little bit more time to recover. So will be doing my transfer at the end of June now. They have found two more tiny 1 cm fibroids, but they are not near the inside of the uterus and the OB says there is no probs with them at all.

Well, I'll try to catch up with you tonight if belly doesn't crash on me again..!!

Just quickly, I hope your bloods were good today Diana, it all looks great so far. Well done hun!!

Dee, I'm keeping everything crossed for you for Friday, I so wish your little embie is a sticky one this time

B xxxx

[helle]

Beata, I'm so glad everything is looking ok in there. I understand that you would want to give yourself that extra month though. Just imagine how healthy you're going to be for your little bubs!
Time flies, doesn't it?

[Miss.B]

Hey Teagz, thanks hunni. Time does really fly!! The doc told me it takes 3 months for the uterus to heal and be ready for another pg, but I must have heard him wrong, as now he says it's recommended to wait 5 to 6 months after the op!!!! Well, by the time June rolls around 6 months would have passed....How are you feeling hun? I'm praying all goes well for you on the 22nd for your scan And I loooove your ticker hun, it's soooo cute!
B xxxxxxxxxx

[helle]

Only another month and a bit, then! By christmas time you should have a nice little bump to show off
I'm going ok, other than my forever expanding boobs I don't have any other pregnancy symptoms (which is bugging me! I think I'd be less restless about it if I had full blown MS)
I'm couting down to that scan but dredding it as well, which is funny really because I thought i would stress more when I rolled around to the 18 week point. Not the case! I so hope I see that little flickering heart pounding away nicely

[Miss.B]

Teagz, you will see that heart beat hun, I've no doubt! And don't worry about the lack of m/s ATM, sometimes it comes a bit later and then you'll be wishing you didn't have it! lol.
I didn't have any m/s except a bit of dry retching at 8 am on the dot every day for a few weeks...that was weird. Mum didn't have any during her 2 pg, so she was very lucky.

Now for a few persies......

Jos, very glad your 12 weeks scan went well, you're doing great hun! Hopefuly your m/s will subside soon

Diana, hope everything went well for you today, sending you big hugs hun

Nice belly rubs for your bubbies Nae, Teagz, Jos, Diana and Jo76

Lots of sticky vibes and baby dust for you Lan, Megan, mummabec and samcougar, bring on the BFP girls!!!

to everyone else, Jo, Tildy, Rozzie, Sue, Helen, Theresa & Laney and big hugs for everyone

B xxxx

[Miss.B]

Teagz, you will see that heart beat hun, I've no doubt! And don't worry about the lack of m/s ATM, sometimes it comes a bit later and then you'll be wishing you didn't have it! lol.
I didn't have any m/s except a bit of dry retching at 8 am on the dot every day for a few weeks...that was weird. Mum didn't have any during her 2 pg, so she was very lucky.

Now for a few persies......

Jos, very glad your 12 weeks scan went well, you're doing great hun! Hopefuly your m/s will subside soon

Diana, hope everything went well for you today, sending you big hugs hun

Nice belly rubs for your bubbies Nae, Teagz, Jos, Diana, Jo76, Sue and Helen

Lots of sticky vibes and baby dust for you Lan, Megan, mummabec and samcougar, bring on the BFP girls!!!

to everyone else, Jo, Tildy, Rozzie, Theresa & Laney and big hugs for everyone

B xxxx

[Berry1]

Beata, I am so pleased to hear that everything is healing nicely for you. I think waiting another couple of weeks is a sensible thing to do and I hope it gives you a lot of confidence going into your transfer knowing you waiting for the full 6-months. I will continue to pray that you are successful first go in June hun

Diana, great news to hear that your 12-wks scan went well, a relief I'm sure. I am sure that the BT will prove ok as well.

Teagz, I can imagine that it is still an anxious time for you. I know I'd be the same. There is every reason that this bubs will be completely fine and healthy. So, will that pretty wedding dress of your expand over a big belly, he he

Dee, I hope you are feeling well and ready for Friday, how exciting. I hope this is the beginning of a 9-month journey for you

Jas, hello, good to hear from you. I hope the m/s settles down soon.

Bec, I hope you are doing ok.

Cheryl, I hope your cycle is 'normal' for you as well. When AF came back, mine were fairly 'normal' but the length of them have been consistently shorter. I hope you get your BFP this month.

Hi to Samcougar, Lan, Nae and everyone else.

[dd0207]

Beata, YAY for a fabulous result. Not long to go now hun, a few more weeks and you will get your BFP, I'm certain of it and I can't wait for that day! You are such a beautiful person and deserve this so much.

Dee, I am sending you truck loads of sticky vibes for your transfer tomorrow sweets. I really really hope this is your month

My final result came back and I am fairly low risk considering my age so am very happy. Stitch should go in next Friday then we pray pray pray this little tiger stays put until my due date.

Hugs to all my lovely TTC friends and I hope and pray for a wave of BFPs for you all soon.

Hello and hugs to our mammas.

D x

[AngelLukesmum]

Hi you beautiful ladies
Just checking up on you all - can't write much as this is being done 1 handed as the boobie monster hangs off me! so please excuse any typos...
beata i'm so happy to hear that your uterus is healing well. cant wait to hear about your bfp next month!
teagz, love the ticker! good luck with the u/s, am sure it will be fine.
Diana, yay on the nt scan results! and sending you heaps of good vibes for your stitch op next week (wow how did we get there so quickly?!)! any questions, let me know.
Dee good luck with the transfer.
ok, gotta go. hi to everyone else xxx

[NaeNae]

Wonderful results Beata you must be excited to start next month. I think waiting that extra time was a smart move you definately want to start the journey in the best possible position. I know what you mean about time flying we're almost 12 months to when Nikita was born it does go so quickly and yet feels like a lifetime ago.


Teagz - you must be sooooo excited, the 22nd will come around quickly and you will see a beautiful little heart beating away a million miles an hour. Its truely is the most wonderful thing to see after such a horrible ordeal.

DD - great low risk results hun such fantastic news. I am glad its not long before you get the stitch in. TBH I am begining to think I want to get one put in regardless of what the Ob says I just want a healthy full term baby in my arms. We have our 1st specialist visit today and will have our NT scan done so will see what he says about the whole thing.

Jas Yay for your scan too - so wonderful. The BB due date group is in the Pregnancy/labour section I will see if I can pm you the link x will be great to have you in there it will be nice to share a journey with someone who has been through the same type thing.

Berry - how are you going lovie?

Samcougar and Mummabec I am so very sorry you have found yourselves in this forum. Its a horrible thing for someone to experience and no doubt there will be many hard days ahead. I can honestly say that over time the hard days do get fewer and further between but there will always be days when the pain will surface. Please just take each day as it comes, the good the bad and the ugly. There is no right or wrong way to feel at any point.
You both have made it into a place full of love and understanding support. It is a lovely open place to speak about your little angels and a wonderful place to off load anything pent up.
My love to you both.

Dee81 - I am sooooo jealous I LURVE crabs and prawns oh soo much. Had to laugh though because ages ago my dad was telling a story of how he went fishing and caught crabs - a fairly innocent thing to say but we all had a great giggle over the catch crabs (think of the rude kind) - trust us to have our minds int he gutter

AFM I have my specialist appointment today which will include my 12 week NT scan. I am pretty excited. I have invited my MIL to come along I think it will be a wonderful experience for her. I also have my Ob appointment straight afterwards which I will need to address a few things. I noticed on the sheet the MW fills in that I had protein in my urine last time so I want to know what can be done about that, also I want to remind him that we talked about me having a blood test to see if I have that clotting thing with my blood. I am trying to remain calm about everything but I also don't want anything to be overlooked. I trust my Ob but I also need to ensure we do everything to keep this bub grounded in its womb for another 190 days

Other than that and the 4 earthquakes we've had since friday I am well, fairly relaxed just very tired so resting as much as I can at every opportunity. I have sprung a bump its not big but its pretty obvious that I am pregnant now. I am hiding from most friends and family as we want to wait at least until 20 - 25 weeks if possible before we share the news ... that is DH wants to wait that long incase something happens again.

Not long before Nikitas 1st birthday will be here, I have been feeling pretty blue about that and mothers day but I have decided on her birthday I will cook a roast for tea (its the special dinner thing) and I have also decided to buy myself an ID bracelet and have her name and birthday engraved on it then every year for her birthday I buy a number charm and add it to the bracelet.

Its odd really being pregnant and coming up to these dates, I feel so sad but then feel bad because I don't want those feelings to impact on my new little one. I do feel like Nikita is watching over him/her and I have felt sometimes like there are angel wings hugging me. I have started having a few nightmares, just re living what happened with Niki but I am sure thats just part of the process.

Anyhoo I have blabbed in here enough.

Much love to all

Nae x x

[NaeNae]

Jas and dd0207 here is the link if you both would like to join me

http://bellybelly.com.au/forums/your...-2009-a-8.html

Nae x

[mummabec]

Hi everyone!

Teagz, I had no MS at all in my second pregnancy even though I had it badly in my first. They are all different! Hope you feel more pregnant soon!

Dee, wishing you very good luck for the transfer tomorrow. Big day!

Beata, that's good news. Hope the time you have to wait goes very fast for you. The last couple of months I've been dying to start TTC but trying to patiently wait.

Diana, that's great about the NT scan. I haven't had one with either of mine, but I might next time around. Everything has changed for me now re what I might and might not do in pregnancy.

Nae, I can only imagine the mixed feelings being pregnant with Nikita's birthday coming up. Anything you feel is alright to feel. Hope you stop having nightmares.

All those I've missed, hope you are going well.


Me, well having a bit of a down day. Went to an Australian Breastfeeding Association mother's day lunch with my local group. There were lots of babies there. I was ok though until I overheard a woman with a baby boy the same age as Luca would be now saying 'his little personality is emerging'. That's the exact thing I wrote on my facebook profile last week except mine says 'Luca would have been 4 months old this coming week. His little personality emerging'.

I am worried about mothers day too. We have church and then a big extended family picnic. I just want to stay in bed under the doona.

I should ovulate on sunday so tomorrow should be time to bd. Bding has been few and far between with me feeling so down so hope I don't feel too bad in the next few days as I couldn't bd just for conception iykwim.

The idea of being pregnant again is quite repellant. When I was pregnant with Luca I told everyone who would listen how glad I was that I'd never have to be pregnant again.

Bec xx

[helle]

The idea of being pregnant again is quite repellant. When I was pregnant with Luca I told everyone who would listen how glad I was that I'd never have to be pregnant again.

If it makes you feel any better I remember one day having a complete freak out at my mum about being pregnant (Jayvan was a surprise) and wishing that I wasn't because it was all just so overwhelming. I feel guilty for it everyday, like my wish came true, and I dwelled on it alot - what could have happened if I never said it? I think we just have to remember we aren't to know what the future holds for us, unfortunately, and because of that we can't always be accountable for the things we think or say after the fact.

NaeNae, I can't wait! But the nerves are still jittering around in there hehe. I'm not looking forward to mothers day either. And I know a few people have bought me things so I can't hide in my hole like I had planned and shun the world But never mind, I guess it gives the soul a bit of a stretch.
That's a lovely idea about the bracelet by the way!

ALM, You're just so clever! hehe! Hope you're all settling ok! I can't believe how fast the time has gone!

DD, yay for low risk! That's fantastic news! Good luck with the stitch, I hope it's not to ouchy for you. Keep in there little bubby!

Berry, I would wanna hope my dress fits over my belly! I went back when I found out I was pg and ordered 2 sizes bigger (if it's too big it will be easier to take it in than let it out) so fingers crossed. I did feel like I was playing with fate a little bit... but if I didn't change it and I make it to 6 months, well... i just won't fit into my original size I don't think! Especially not my boobs at this rate.

Beata, thanks for your encourging words. You always kick my brain back into logical thinking again!

AFM... We bought a new car yesterday in preperation for our expanding family! We got a 2003 Landcruiser, SUCH a good car and so well looked after even Dad couldn't believe it. So, now I can take bubs and the dog places together without them co-exsisting to close to each other during the trip XD (There I go tempting fate again) and, what's even more exciting is they gave us a $10,000 trade in for DF's ute. Which is bascially going to drop its motor any minute. Needless to say we signed the papers quick smart and high tailed it out of there before they could have to much of a look and realise how tired the poor thing is. I almost felt sorry for the car dealer... almost.

[mummabec]

If it makes you feel any better I remember one day having a complete freak out at my mum about being pregnant (Jayvan was a surprise) and wishing that I wasn't because it was all just so overwhelming. I feel guilty for it everyday, like my wish came true, and I dwelled on it alot - what could have happened if I never said it? I think we just have to remember we aren't to know what the future holds for us, unfortunately, and because of that we can't always be accountable for the things we think or say after the fact.

Yeah, I hear you there. I didn't want a boy
Though of course by the time I lost him I did (we found out at 20 weeks).

xx Bec.

[helle]

Yeah, I hear you there. I didn't want a boy
Though of course by the time I lost him I did (we found out at 20 weeks).

xx Bec.

Yep, it happens to alot of people. My mum was the same, but she didn't want a girl. In the end she had a boy, but he was still born at 40 weeks. She always says she felt like she was being punished for being selfish, and God gave her her boy, but gave him to her forever-sleeping to teach her a lesson about being greatful for what we're given.

And I was the same as you. My freak out lasted the day (if that) and after that I knew I wanted him. All I'd imagine was how lovely it would be to dress him up in little clothes, and smell that nice baby smell and snuggle up together in our bed on weekends and coo over him. So I guess I have learnt a lesson too, really. My experiences with Jayvan have made me a much wiser and compationate person than what I was before, and although I NEVER want to have to go through it all again, I'm a better person for it.

But anyway, enough rambling from me! I'm off to dinner tonight to sort out our wedding guest list with my folks and PIL. Wish me luck. The last I heard mum had bumped the list up to 120 people.

Love xx

[mummabec]

Teagz, you are brave, letting your parents and PIL assist! Generous too but yes, good luck!!

I'm not sure if I'm wiser or more compassionate. I hope I am or will be but I worry this will change me for the worse.

xx Bec.

[helle]

Teagz, you are brave, letting your parents and PIL assist! Generous too but yes, good luck!!

I'm not sure if I'm wiser or more compassionate. I hope I am or will be but I worry this will change me for the worse.

xx Bec.

I'm their only daughter and DF is their only son, and they have made it very clear that they are using the occassion to shamelessly "show us off" seeing as they will both only get the chance once wedding wise (hopefully haha!). It's rather embarassing, though.

You will be, loving an angel baby is the most unconditional love in the world. You're a gorgeous and very special mummy for having Luca in your life, even when his life was much to short. x