Hi laides - I haven't been around much so I am going to try to catch up now.

Katie - First of all. I don't even know what to say about your brother. His comments make no sense to me. How can anyone (especially a loved one) say such things, even if they are supposed to be a joke. Around Christmas my mother told me that she has been effected too by Anthony's loss. She had to rewrite over half of her Christmas cards. I was stunned, but I am used to me mom saying insensitive things. I hope your brother can understand that he is way out of line. And good luck with your test results. I am glad you love your new OB. I have so happy when mine took tons of tests. IF she didn't I would have never known about my MTHFR gene.

Jo - Has AF shown? I hope not, we need a BFP. ANd yes I have been crazy busy.

Simba - Your story is heartbreaking. I am glad you were able to have 12 lovely days with your precious daughter. I am a teacher also. It was very hard to go back to work. I had just told people at work on Friday that I was pregnant. They were all waiting for my results (we were finding out the sex) We had Monday off and I found out that Anthony had passed on Tuesday. I have found that normalcy comes and goes. As someone once told me there is now a new normal for all of us. It is helpful to see people with similar stories to go on and have healthy babies. You should drop into the pregnancy thread. I love "seeing" the ladies in there. it brings me hope.

TM - I am so sorry about your grandfather. Has AF shown her ugly head? I know good things are around the corner for you.

As for me, busy does not begin to explain it. My life is in total flux. The renovations are going very slow. My contractor is a total jerk and my husband insists we continue to be nice to him. I understnad my DH's point but my apartment is a disaster area and I am ready for the work to be finished. The earliest will now be Tuesday. DH and I had a big blow up about it this morning. As I get closer to my should have been due date I am having less and less good days. Every time I have a cup of coffee or help with bathroom renovations I think that I shouldn't be able to that. I do not know how I will feel in APril. I am worried that all this stress is not good for TTC. I have about a week until I ovulate. sorry about the rant. I am trying to stay positive, but I am just very deflated.

Barbara