Hi everyone. I agree a group hug is required

Jo - I have responded to you in the Preg thread and am going to send you a PM as well. I will be thinking of you tomorrow and will have a candle lit for Madison. Please be kind to yourself and don't push yourself to 'get back out there' if you aren't ready. There is no timeframe to grief and whatever you need to do is right for you. DHs can be difficult but try to lean on each other. I remember posting a back in Jan or Feb that after DH and I had another screaming match he admitted that he felt that Nathaniel and I had our own special team and he wasn't allowed to be in it - I told him that we both wanted him desperately in our team. I think men often feel left out when a baby is born, so it probably feels even more so when a mother loses her child - as women we have a physical and emotional attachment that they can't understand. Maybe explain to him that you need him to be there with you - and that Madison and Jack need him as well. I will be thinking of you all day tomorrow - I hope you are ok. But as I said I will PM and email you.

Lan - I will also be thinking of you tomorrow as I am sure it is scary to get the autopsy results...but (in a very stern voice) you did not kill your son! You loved and nurtured him and unfortunately his time here was short, but it doesn't reflect on you. Please do not blame yourself as it would be a very painful spiral down for you and it is not what Hamish would want.

MrsRobbo - your son is a beautiful soul. You are very lucky to have someone who can express themselves so beautifully. Charlie is lucky to have such a wonderful big brother. I often wonder how I will have our future children know about Nathaniel. I think I will just make it a common thing in our house that their big brother is an angel in heaven who looks after them. We have a Christmas decoration that we bought for him, so I will always ensure that the children know it is given pride of place on the tree etc.

Sue - try to stay strong and keep hope high for this little bubba.

Tildy - I hope you are ok and happy to hear that your bleeding has not returned. Let's hope it stays well away so you can relax a little.

Helen - hi and how are you?

Sue - hello as well.

Ladies - you will have to remind me who is TTC right now and who is waiting for October? I don't want to get it wrong and cause you any pain. I also want to know who I need to be keeping my fingers crossed for and stalking of charts etc!

Well, I have another Ob appointment today and I really am glad as I had a dream the other night (wrote about it in the preg thread) and I need some reassuring. The baby has been kicking so that is a good sign. I will also be interested to see if the baby is still head down. Thank you all so much for the good wishes as I move to 30 weeks - it is so appreciated and I value your support so much. I hope you all enjoy the champers on my behalf!!! I will have a sparkling water or chocolate milkshake (my current obsession) to celebrate on Sat. I will update you this afternoon to let you know how things go today.