Bec :hugs: I truly understand that feeling.
We are all handle this trip differently - when you are ready I know there will be some amazingly special women here at Belly Belly who will support you and hold your hand!
For me I have decided to "Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway" to coin the title of a famous self help book! I just so much want to have another child to love and nurture.

You will get there too Bec in YOUR time...