I think I will sleep tonight becuase I am so physically (I did a big workout at the gym before I found the lump) and emotionally exhausted it is a struggle even trying to keep my eyes open.
About all the tests you are discussing in the Pregnancy After Recurrent m/c, late loss and stillbirth thread, I know that you want to search for answers, you know that I am going through exactly the same thought process at the moment, but don't forget the very wise advice you gave me, no matter what you did or what you do in your future pregnancys, this is not your fault. I know that is easy to say and to be honest I blame myself every day for losing Harrison but deep down I know that we both did everything that we could to bring our little boys safely to this earth. The couldn't have asked for better mums. I just don't want you to drive yourself mad searching for answers that may not be there. Do everything that you need to but also trust your instincts.
I'll let you all know how tomorrow goes, the ultrasound is at 12.45pm. I am actually getting DH to drive me to the North Coast because the earliest appointment I could get in Brisbane was next Monday!!! The condecending lady at the xray place told me not to worry so much and just wait the 5 days, and it wasn't until I starting balling my eyes out and told her that I am going through so much other stuff at the moment that she shut up! She was on the phone to another place and said "I have a girl here who needs an ultrasound'. I know that it is irrational but I wanted to yell at her, I am not a girl!! I am a married women who has just lost a son and I am not a little girl so don't trivialise my concerns!!!!!! Boy, I was so mad DH said he was about to have a go at her also but I am glad that we held it together and it doesn't matter now because we don't have to go back there because the appointment is at another place. Even if it is in another city, I don't care, waiting until Monday would have made me go nuts:eek:... I am just trying to stay positive
DH said he was about to have a go at her also but I am glad that we held it together and it doesn't matter now because we don't have to go back there because the appointment is at another place. Even if it is in another city, I don't care, waiting until Monday would have made me go nuts:eek:... I am just trying to stay positive
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