TTC after Stillbirth/ Recurrent Miscarriage or Loss after the First Trimester

[Mel1977]

Hi all - Sorry i havent been in, we had a going away dinner with work and didnt get home til midnight.

DEB - I am so sorry for everything, I know you are trying to have a positive attitude about this but I just feel so sad for you. After everything you have been through, you deserve so much better. I am glad the cramping has eased off a little. I really admire your strength and I just hope one day I can be a strong woman like yourself. I am sending all my love to you and your beautiful family

Lynn - Gee Foxtel keeps me out of the loop, I havent heard anything about this low fat milk business. I drink low fat milk also cause I like it more, and I have enough chocolate and crap without having full cream milk and cheese and all on top of it. I hope you are doing ok

Spring - Good girl staying home to rest, sorry DH isnt coming home but it is really good that he can be there for your appointments. Too funny about the noon comment, you werent far off huh... it is terrible being so predictable LOL

Jo - I hope Brigid is feeling a lot better and you are doing ok with all the stress.

Bailey - Sorry you got a BFN, it sucks huh even if it is too earlier all you want is to see at least a faint shadow. Have you tested again? Is that a stupid question because of course you have LOL

Clare - That is fantastic to hear Splodge is doing well.

Big hi to everyone else.

Well I am officially unemployed (until 13th) and I am so happy about it. Everyone at work made my day yesterday very special and I got a cake and a few people got teary and my boss was talking to me during the day and saying good luck and everything and he said "we had some good times didnt we" LOL I felt like I was breaking up with him or something. Anyway we had a going away dinner planned for last night and nearly everyone came, and it was really nice. I got a going away present of this massive card which everybody signed and a Coles Myer voucher for $270 (they also gave me a wedding present in November of $250).

Another girl I am reasonably close with gave me a present and said I am not allowed to open it until I get pregnant and she wants me to open it the day it is definite (as in confirmed by a dr) because it is a little something to tell me she knows everything will work out for us. I got so teary when she said that, she kept saying I bet you will get pregnant as soon as you leave here and I got so upset because I really don't think it is going to happen, I know everyone wishes it for me but I just have this bad feeling something is not right and I can't shake it.

I did another test yesterday and got BFN and also another this morning with a BFN - lets face it, its not my month this month just like it hasnt been mine for the last 6 months. I know you are probably all looking at my ticker thinking there is still time but the ticker is a day out and I am day CD26 today. I am not stupid and I know that I would get at least a faint shadow by now. So now I am trying to figure out how I will get through Monday which is Nicholas' 6 month anniversary and I am also going to get AF that day DH cant take the day off cause we are going away on the long weekend so he is off on the Friday. Hey at least I dont have to worry about being a mess at work. Sorry to sound so "woe is me" and I dont mean to, just typing out my thoughts.

I hope you have a really good POETS day, I today my plans are to go pay my rego, and vacuum up after the stupid birds have flicked seeds all over the tiles (I will never have birds as a pet again! Well at least not 3 of them), cook dinner and then go pick up my step-children for the weekend. The time in between will be spent playing on my computer, and I am going to treat myself to Subway for lunch.

And finally, I am with you Deb - all round!

Sorry for the long post but you all know me by now LOL

Mel