Spring - I'm sorry that DH isn't coming home this weekend but at least he will be home next week for your appointments. I bet he can't wait to see his little bean. Let us know how you go this afternoon. Take care.

Deb - Thanks for the babydust - I think we really need it in here.

I am feeling positive about the FS as all the test results came back negative which is good. I think I forgot to mention last time that they also tested my blood to see if there was anything that could have contributed to us losing Cooper. That is why I was so nervous in going because I think I have finally got to the point where I don't blame myself anymore and I was just so scared that they would find something in my blood that had caused it. Luckily they didn't and it was just a tragic accident. Some days I still blame myself because I wish I had known that he was in trouble. I should have protected my boy. It makes it so hard to understand how and why this happened because the chance of a stillbirth is so rare but for it to happen with a cord accident is more rare. I just think how did it happen to me - I don't want it to happen to anyone but the chance of a cord accident happening is so rare that you don't even hear about it. I just don't understand. I am so scared about falling pg again because I think if it is rare and it happened to me once, then why can't it happen again. I know the cord was very long, but who decides that. What if they decide to give me another long cord. There is nothing that you can do about it. I just know that I can't go through this again.

I never ever thought I would be wishing for AF to arrive but I am! I just need her to raise her ugly head so I can start a fresh next month. The FS will monitor me throughout so hopefully by the end I will have my BFP. I'm CD32 and my temps are still up but if it is anything like last month, AF arrived 7 DPO, so she will arrive tomorrow. I have increased my metformin dose and it hasn't made me too sick (not like last week!) so hopefully with this and the clomid it is all that my body needs

I know that it has only been 3 months since Cooper was born, but I just feel that every day that passes it gets harder because I don't have my baby with me. I know I carried him to term, I know I gave birth to him, but I just don't have him here now.