he stayed with our friends last night(grapevine) who have a 1 yr old instead of his ****wit mate so was comforted knowing that hes talking to someone whos been there and working through it apposed to those looking through the window and have no clue. Shavon and chris seem to think they knocked some sense into him but i dont know whether that means he realising the errors of his ways and wants to talk or if he will just dwell some more. i know i am up and down but atm i feel empowered on my own. My mum had Russell last night for a few hours and my close mates just rallied round and help pick me up and we slept better for it . i talked and cryed and theorised and laughed. though ifeel empowered now , i know i will feel defeated later if it all goes down the gurgler