wow how do you all find time to post? everysecond of my free time goes to sleep or TRYING not to drown under th onslaught of filthy washing and dust and dishes. i wish i could ignore it but dirty house bothers me more than sleep deprivation...

Kira- It can be hard, especially when they (we do too!) want to feel young and like they still have lives. My DH is a little bit the same way.. He doesn't get up with Lila in the middle of the night (rightly so, he's got uni) and he still has something of a social life and doesnt understand why I get upset when he goes out. Granted, he goes out fora few hours early in the evening usually, but still. He gets to be a grown-up. All I can recommend is talking to him... ?

Mgm- I didn't have a caesar, but this baby is so hard on my back. I try to make sure I'm using good posture 100% of the time but its still so wearing. No idea what to do about it besides a little cat-cow-cobra yoga, I'm just hanging in there in the hopes it all gets better.

Janine- I feel the same way about babies, though my heart does melt a little lately when she looks deep into my eyes and gives me a big gummy grin. And she's starting to make little pre-talking sorting-things-out vowel sounds. Just a bit but its a start.

we're still fighting thrush here, have had 2 rounds of nilstat drops with little change. so i'm using my trusty old hand pump still, and being a nazi about sterilizing everything that comes near her mouth. it's getting old, i'd rather just be able to put her to breast but she gives my nipples thrush and its excruciating. if it doesn't clear up i guess its back to the dr.

Despite that, she's getting so big. And I finally managed to get her into the sling today, she liked it and fell asleep while I did some chores. Fantastic. Then DH finally got up and I handed her over so I could get some sleep. I'd been letting her fall asleep on my chest (after burping) and then transferring her to the bed or her bassinet (yes I caved and got one) on her back.she doesnt really sleep well like that. we visited dh's parents a few weekends ago and Mil had Lila sleeping on her tummy. She was so much happier and better settled. MIL put her kids on their tummies and they all managed to make it to adulthood, so I've been letting her tummy sleep some lately.

Sleep... Ah. I get kind of jealous of DH's sleep, esp when I haven't had much and get stroppy about it. Sometimes it just feels like I have to do everything, which is crazy because he helps out so much and cleans house and cooks sometimes and right now is sleeping under Lila while i have a break.

As for body... I'm getting really thin, like ugly thin despite eating well. I eat good food and heaps of it. You wouldn't be able to tell from looking that I had a baby, which sounds like a good thing but it kind of freaks me out. Not a mark on me. Its just bizarre. Here I was all ready to sacrifice my body on the holy altar of motherhood and nothing. (tongue in cheek a little there)

I'm well mentally really upbeat to be honest and I love my little Lila-bear. Its finally happened, the love thing. I think it has something to do with the way she looks round for me and smiles when I kiss her tummy. Something like that...

Anyone who is planning to use cloth nappies still in sposies? I'm working on making the transition to old fashioned towelling and covers, I just haven't completed it. Kind of feel bad, I'd pictured myself cloth diapering, breastfeeding and babywearing and it hasn't worked out like that at all yet. Oh well, my baby is fat and happy.