Oh well, my baby is fat and happy.
God, how I wish I could say this. Nothing against you Steph BTW.

Baxter is 6 weeks old today and is barely 400gms above his birth weight.

He had his paed appt yesterday and we are booked in for a renal and bladder ultrasound at Murdoch next Thursday, with a follow up paed appt the Thursday after that.

I'm to keep feeding him as per normal, with an extra bottle of EBM after his last feed at night time. If this doesn't give him a projected weight gain on Friday of 200gms per week, we are to give him a bottle of formula.

Two things that upset me:

- why isn't he putting on weight? Why is he still unwell?
- the decision to maybe put him on to formula is not made by me, but I know he needs to be fatter and my milk alone isn't doing that.

Before he started on the AB, he had a weight gain of 170gms in 8 days, which was great! Then the diarrhea started from the AB and his weight gain was only 105gms in 7 days. Plus he got a nappy rash that I've only just managed to clear up.

Poor little mite, he is so alert and settled otherwise and it just breaks my heart to see him not thriving. ETA - actually he is just been screaming his heart out because I've missed his tired signs and he is exhausted.

Plus, I had GP and OB appt yesterday. My stiches look fine, and I've lost 10kgs, only 5 to go until I get back to pre-preg weight, but that will go on the backburner until Baxter's issues are sorted. I have a tear around my bottom, hence the bleeding when I go to the toilet and I had a flu jab. AND! If that wasn't enough, I'm back to pumping 3 times a day for his EBM at night. So between Baxter, my boobs, my bottom and sore arm, I'm feeling very down right now.

Sorry for no personals, but to Zennie.

SG
xo