Reading the stories of pain and loss from everyone here just makes me want to cry (but I can't cause I'm at school!). I can't even imagine what it would be like to lose a child - losing a father was bad enough. But I hope it helps you to know BW, that there are so may people out there that can empathise with how you feel and that even if, like me, we haven't expereinced the same thing you have, we stil lfeel awful for you and wish you didn't have to feel the pain. I'm glad you have taken the time to cry and to shower. Maybe in a week or so when you feel a bit better a facial wouldn't go astray. I hope you can get some relief from the arthritis and that sleeping becomes easier. Still praying for you, hon.