BW - allow yourself to question each and every decision made by you and your doctors. It is healthy to question and healthy to check and double check on your care and the medication regimes you take. You do this with your rheumy, why not do it with your FS???

BUT do not think you caused your caterpillar to die through something you did or did not do. That is not the case. You did everything in your power to make a safe environment for your little one with the knowledge you had at the time. If that knowledge changes, we live and learn but it still doesn't mean you did anything wrong or are in any way to blame.

The metformin question is a difficult one with two sides of the fence and good arguments for and against each. You know the literature is inconclusive. And as for your use of prednisone - another reason for a consult with Dr S!!

The good days will get more frequent but the bad days are to be expected. Be gentle with yourself and DH this weekend. It will be emotionally draining to see the family but there is nothing like being with family when you hurt (even if they don't know what to do or say). And please drive carefully. We want you back safe and sound