BW, I am sorry today is not a good day for you. But it is also to be expected, after all, it is only less than a week so don't be too hard on youself...

I know how you feel at the moment trying to find a logical reason of why all these happened, I have been torturing myself in the same way, going through my diary of the last 63 days and what step I could have done different....but this is just the phase we need to go through in order to get over it...we all know it was just fickle nature that caused this outcome, at random.

One day can be very different from another, tomorrow is another day and I don't know how you will be feeling, but I do know that you are one day further in this recovery journey...just like you promised me 'it will get better'...and it will...