Today's not been a good day... I tried so hard to pretend I was doing ok, but I'm just not.

DH was supposed to come home early - but things went badly at work and he can't now. It's really not helping at all, and I'm worried that he's having a crap day himself, but he wouldn't talk about it on the phone.

I'm still cramping. It's mild, but it's there. Still bleeding... I'm terrified that it means that they possibly didn't get everything out and I'm going to have to go back...

What's really not helping is that I'm so stuck in unhelpful lines of thinking. I figured out a link between my prednisone dose and the spotting, and I was so sure I had it figured and everything would be ok... Except I'm a doofus who forgot why I take metformin.

I watching myself throw up 2/3 of my daily dose one night... and then saw spotting start the next day. The following day my GP told me to reduce the dose further if I wasn't eating as much as normal... what the hell was I thinking?! I know it's not helping at all to be thinking like this, but I can't seem to get the thoughts out of my head.

BW