.... i was just about to mention the same as Maz, ... for me i was certain i was in some state of shock where alot shuts down and goes numb, in a strange way it was a god send as i felt i couldn't cope if i was crying all day long, needless to say my heart felt so heavy like someone was sitting on my chest (that i felt all day & every day but as time went by it got lighter) xox

Sara once again i'm so, so sorry ... warm gentle hugs to you from me