Lynn I only just saw this post. I spoke to you on phone late last year after Copper passed away and again wish in a way we never met you in these circumstances.
It is hard for people to understand what one goes through unless they experience it themselves.. Our lives seem to drag on slowly, while everyone else is going on as normal... you feel cheated and cannot believe what has happened.. Why me?? wishing you can wake up, as if it were a bad dream.
Tears tremble with every heartbeat ... every pregnant women and crying baby (or not) we see... the TV shows the horrible news stories they eat at us.It is not fair.
But two years later I can say it does get better- you do move on with normal living but a part of you is forever missing and the emptyness of not having Charlotte in my real life remains.
The worst time is the first year /six months but slowly I can honestly say things do get better.I sought out beautiful friends who experienced the loss of a baby too.They say the sympathy with others runs out but never with special friends.They tell the truth and are an inspiration in darkest hours/days/months. They help lessen the pain. With them I am Charlotte's mummy and I can talk openly about her.I can laugh and talk delight in the sign and wonders she sends me.
Trish
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