Thanks Greeneyes. It will be 6 weeks tomorrow since I lost Cooper. I can't believe it has been that long - it seems likes yesterday. The pain is still so strong. It did take us a long time with Cooper so we don't want to lose any time, so we thought it would be best to start soon. Like someone said, I am not replacing him, just the whole in my heart. Cooper could never be replaced - he is my first son, my first baby who I love and miss so dearly.

We have Cooper's ashes with us at home until his garden is ready at the cemetry. (We are waiting on the plaques). I got into his room every morning and say good morning and talk to him and turn his musical mobile on. I didn't want Cooper to be alone, that is why we brought him home until his garden is ready but now I don't know if I can let him go again.