KAM, I am so sorry.. I know nothing will take away your pain right now but I hope you please take comfort in the fact you are not alone.. Maybe getting in touch with SANDS (Stillbirth and neonatal Death Supp) Will help.. They have listeners that you can call anytime and they also have a library that you can borrow from as well as newsletters that you can place a memorial in if you wish.. There are so many ways to honour your babies.. I have been sent a bracelet from a memorial site called Nicola's tears and had my bubs names written in the sand and printed out on canvas.. For me its little things like this I do to keep their memory alive.. And you always have us here.. Just 1 day at a time..