Feeling conflicted, guilty and undecided about how to birth baby #2

[Blondie]

Thanks so much for your encouragement ladies I was feeling a bit paranoid about the BF'ing side of things. A lot of things were not in my favour with DS, really big boobs, large and flat nipples and my flow was very fast. DS chomped down a lot when he was latching because of the flow, which caused thrush on the nipples, cracks (which I can still see today!) and mastitis. I also had enough milk to feed triplets according to a nurse argh!

I am going to write a breastfeeding plan and then a birthing plan and see how I go. I really hope my OB is supportive. Going through the public system and I have heard it's a bit of a hit and miss....IYKWIM

Lolpigs - I need to take a leaf out of your book and most of the other ladies in here as well....(I could make an encyclopeida of all the good advice I have been given in here) everyone is detrimined to have the experience they so rightly deserve. I can make my first labour my rough draft, and my second my masterpiece! LOL

HotI - I'm definetly going to check that out! Thanks sweet!

FionaS - That's amazing! Well done! I have never heard that but I suppose it is natural instinct isn't it?! That has made me feel heaps better. But it makes me sad to think that I still might have had a chance with DS had I just sought some more help and not been "put off" by people. The nurse I went to see basically weighed my Son and told me that he was a perfect weight and I was doing well. Didn't bother watching me feed, or asking how I was feeling about the issues I was having. Told me, everyone has issues and that they will work themselves out. If the woman had bothered to talk to me she would have realised that waiting for the issues to "work themselves out" wasn't an option I was stressed out and neeeded help now! Next time I am going to be pushy about what I want.

[Blondie]

Just wanted to update everyone....I am going in for my first OB appointment this Thursday, which I was told will be the appointment where we discuss birth options. I have decided to press forward with my decision for a c-section. I talked to a midwife about it last week at my appointment and she was supportive when I told her about my labour last time and why I was considering a c-section, she told me ultimately the Doctor will decide whether I can have one or not, but if I feel strongly enough about it and present him/her with my reasons it would certainly be considered.

Now I am feeling a little bit stressed about if they say no....

I am also having the talk with DH tonight about the whole thing...I want him to realise that I will be out of action and there will be times where he will have to "fend for himself" while I attend to the baby, plus ensure he is aware of recovery times etc.