Thanks for asking Rach. I wish I could say it was good, but it isn't.

This morning was another argument. Admittiedly, I was tired and hormonal and not at my best. But, as usual, it was something silly and his normal response (well I guess it's over then) came out. He left to do the shopping mid argument and, instead of calling like he normally does mid fight, sent me an SMS. How brave. Not. When he came back, we had a civilised lunch and when DD went to bed we talked. Laid it out on the table. End result was we are seperating. Then he realised how much he will miss DD. So we are trying. Again. BUT he is now sleeping downstairs in the spare room on the aerobed. We are going to try and be friends first and then see if it progresses. We have close to $50k in debt so we are going to try and get rid of it as quick as we can. He has agreed to help with DD around my shifts and if we end up living seperate will still help out. He has also agreed to help out financially. It will be a massive struggle for me financially on my own but he will help out as much as possible in addition to mandatory requirements. It will still be hard but we will see how we go. I'm pretty upset about it all at the moment. In my heart, I know it is for the best but still... And if we seperate, I know I will be happy again... but still. So, it looks like my marriage is on it's last legs. I don't really know what to do or how I feel. A bit numb I suppose. I know I will get there. I just want something in my life to go right for once. Just one thing.