Has anyone who has had to transfer during their birth to hospital had a difficult time coming to terms with it? I didn't get my home water birth which I've gotten over but I find myself sometimes going over my birth and getting frustrated about having an episiotomy, my son being delivered via ventouse, him being suctioned after birth (this especially makes me cringe and really upset), and having syntocin for the placenta. I've tried talking to dh about it but he just goes quiet and doesn't know what to say. I am annoyed mainly that all those things were done without my permission and without being informed why they were necessary. I am considering hiring a doula for my next birth so I have someone to speak up for me as both dh and I are easily intimidated by medical staff.
Yes!!!!!!! OMG yes a million times.
I am so sorry that you didn't get the birth you had hoped for. I have found it can be such an incredibly hard situation to piece together exactly what and how you are feeling, I am still struggling. I have no advice because I am where you are (maybe just further along in thinking about it) but I reckon there would be a billion worse things you could do than hire a doula. Just be sure she is the right one for you. My I/M failed us badly in terms of medical intervention when she did finally turn up. Huge hugs