DH has told me I'm not "allowed" to be stressed at work because I didn't look hard enough for a "proper" job, so any problems I have are my own fault. His standards aren't about to drop, but he's not willing to help out either (even when I ask him to clean out the bath after he cuts his hair then has a bath, leaving a hairy bath until I clean it out). I really hate clearing out other peoples' hair! For that matter, I hate cleaning up my own hair. Maybe he means that when he drops food (eg a crisp) on the floor it's not picked up by me that same night? OK, I know, that is bad of me but I'm really sick of clearing up after him!

I love cooking and baking, just when I want to do it. DH has told me he shouldn't have to get up and cook dinner and I should (although he will sometimes do the washing up), but I'm fine with doing that. When he does the shopping, maybe 2-3 times a year, I need to go myself the next day to get in fruit/veg/edible stuff, so his usual excuse is that I know what we have in and he doesn't. LOL, as if I can remember what I bought 10 mins after putting it all away! I know full well that come Easter DH will be having cakes, biscuits and other treats made for him twice a week, but I'll be at home then so it's different! Yes, so making dinner isn't the problem, having it on the table for 7-7.30 each night is; sometimes I don't want to start cooking until 7.30 and DH won't do it, he'd rather sulk.

I guess I should stop complaining about it: I didn't wake up with him this morning so he'll be in a bad mood tonight because I didn't get him breakfast, but we don't have much food in right now so at least I have meal plans for the next few nights (seriously, we have so little food in that we only have 3 choices for a meal!) and tonights will be a frozen meal I made a few months back. It's just the effort to get up from the sofa some nights that's hard: we do sometimes have frozen food or pizza, very occasionally take-out, but sometimes I just want to sit down and have the world come to me for a change!

Plus I'm worried about my sister in hospital, she's not gotten in touch with me and she's supposed to have been discharged. If only my stupid mother hadn't gone on holiday the day after she was admitted so I don't feel like I have to look after my sister, although she's hundreds of miles away.

I'll just tell him he's right, I need to be better around the house and ask him to make me a list of what I'm not doing "right" so I can improve. I'll improve a bit for a month, then downgrade all those services, blaming work and pregnancy, then magically post-baby they'll improve (even just to current standards LOL) so he'll agree with me that going back to work is a foolish idea, in fact I may try and have it as his idea. If I do go back then all the work I do will stop being done and he'll have to re-think on the SAHM idea.