Lovely gorgeous Dan. You are so far from selfish its not funny. I'd like to come and give your Mum a bit of a smack if that's ok. I can't imagine how hard it must have been for your sister but however hard it is for us to deal with losses and others' pregnancies, somewhere underneath it all you DO have to accept that life goes on, and that while your own life may be in the poo, others are entitled to happiness.

I can only hope that when your bub is born your Mum and Dad come to their senses and realise that where there is loss there is also new, wonderful life. I also hope that your sister is soon pregnant again and can experience some baby joy too. I honestly don't think there is anything more you can do than what you've done. You shouldn't have to apologise for the choices you have made for your own family, and you of all people are entitled to joy, happiness, support and love.

I wish I was there to give you a huge cuddle. Love you, and I for one can't wait to welcome your new baby into the world.