Hey Wheatie

If it makes you feel any better, wondering if they got it wrong isnt irrational at all. Either that or being irrational is part of the whole shock thing.

When they first told me there was no heartbeat, the sonographer then went about checking ovaries and other stuff...and I was sure when she got back to the bub I was SURE she was going to say "ooops, I was wrong, there's the heartbeat afterall".

Then in the day leading up to the D&C I literally got all panicky about they'd got it wrong that I asked my Ob to re-check just before doing the procedure. Plus I asked the lady admitting me at the day surgery "do they double check????"....

Then I did this weird bargaining thing that they must have got it wrong as I was still feeling morning sickness etc....

Basically what I'm saying is nothing about this experience is what you expected to happen, therefore nothing you think or feel is irrational and is completely understandable no matter how out-there you think it is. If you think no one in your real life is understanding what you are going through, just pop in here to the ladies who are only too familiar with the pain, shock, heartbreak and downright PG hormonal body and mind altering episodes!

Best of luck with your D&C...it's the road to recovery.