Hey mate, I know what you mean. When you have one, it doesn't feel as bad I guess, you're positive you will have a healthy pregnancy to follow. But after the second, you really do begin to question your body's ability. Everything us up in the air, and you're almost unsure if you even want to try again. I'm in the same place right now. So unsure if I should even try, as I'm not sure I could emotionally go through another miscarriage?
I have no idea what people talk about with all the abbreviations and technical talk too, so don't feel like you're the only one. So really don't think the ttc threads are for me.
With my ds, I had alot if bleeding... I mean alot. Seemed to be pretty constant until the 15 week mark, my dd I also had a small bleed, but that was a once off. So bleeding really doesn't mean the end. It really is a whole new level of paranoia once you've had a mc hey? You feel like you live on the toilet, live in fear.

At the moment I'm looking at it like a pattern. Healthy baby (dd), miscarriage at 9 weeks, healthy baby, miscarriage at 8.5 weeks, so next time I try, I must be having another healthy baby.. Right?
Maybe you could look at it the same.. Miscarriage, healthy baby, miscarriage, .... Healthy baby

It will happen Hun, unfortunately we may experience sadness again, and I hate that. But I really want this... I really want the privilege, the honor, of raising a third child. So am going to take the risk. It has only been 3 weeks since my d&c, so I am going to wait until af, then get serious with ttc. (get serious means nookie every other day, as I have no idea on the technicals!). I would happily be your ttc buddy in this thread

sucks hey? But I can't wait to read your BA next year xo