tellytubby I hate it. I keep telling myself that pregnancy is supposed to be special, but all I could do was worry, and that made me worry for being worried! LOL. We hired a doppler for DD's pregnancy and it really helped saved my sanity each time I started spotting. There was one day it happened at work and I called DH - he left work and went home to pick up the doppler and brought it to me. I lay in the backseat of the car just to make sure everything was still okay. It was horrible. You've echoed many of my feelings and thoughts and I'm so sorry you're feeling it too. Nobody in my family has been through this and it meant that after the first m/c, nobody really knew how to act around me which drove me bananas. So this time around we didn't really say anything straight away, but that doesn't feel fair either. Vicious circle.

I guess I fell into this false sense of security that it wouldn't happen again. I did have one baby. DH is being really supportive because I keep blaming myself. He says that it could be him that's causing it, but I doubt that because I have spotting throughout. I have fibroids too, so I know that they could be causing the spotting. I know the facts, but I just want it all to go away so I can enjoy what will be our last pregnancy. We're both living in a land of limbo, waiting to fall pg, waiting to move house, waiting for our plans to happen. Right now, we're both just going through the motions (with a few highlights here and there!), just waiting for something to happen. Gah!

AF is here atm and it's a "normal" one at last. I m/c naturally in April and didn't expect things to take so long to get back to normal. First m/c was a d&c and I felt on top of things a lot faster then. Good luck with your TTC, hun.

Thanks for the hugs, Audax.