Kristy
:hugs: I am so deeply very sorry for the loss of your precious beautiful baby boy.
I know the future weeks, and even days just seem too painful to be able to carry on through,,,,but just try to only think one day ahead at a time, and be kind to yourself hun,,,,,Greif knows no time frame, so dont rush yourself
As Jayne posted above, it does help cope with the loss a bit if you can in your own way, create a tribute to your little one, wether it be a display/shrine, plant a tree or flowers in a dedicated spot, scrapbook a diary album of your little one, etc.
I lost my precious Kaitlyn at 30 weeks, with no reason found, and have got a display cabinet full of things i have bought for her birthdays/christmas each year, little angel and fairy figurines, tiny teddies etc,,,,around a precious photo i have of her. This way, anyone who comes into my home, and even my own children know how much a very special and loved person she was, and still is in our hearts.
It doesnt matter if family, or other people dont understand why you need to do something special for your little one,,,as it is not for them, it is for you. Many a hard lonely night after everyone else had gone to bed, I found myself just going through the photos i have of her, and looking through all the precious things we have bought for her,,,,it helped me cry, and release the pain, and gradually after alot of time, i even managed a smile for the love I have for her being in our lives.
We are all here for you hun, so please, dont hesitate in letting us help you through this time.