Dear Kristy,

I am hear sheding tears for your Harrison, My Katelyn and all the other babies who have been taken in such a tragic way. I am so sorry for both the loss of Harrison and his twin. It is such a hard road to travel and there is nothing that anyone can say or do in this world to make it better. I dont know anything about VATER's, i was wondering though if you could possibly bring your doctors appointment forward because it sounds to me as though you need to talk his condition through with the Medical staff that were involved in yours and Harrisons care. My heart goes out to you and your husband at this time.

You asked about how long it took to face the world and honestly i shut myself away for a long time, it was for me the only way to deal with my grief, was slowly and to not expect to much of myself.

As for getting some fresh air, can i suggest that you find a beautiful place where in time you can go for a picnic on Harrisons special days where you can spend time in peace and quite and remember him always. Rowan and I chose a place where i used to spend a lot of time swimming as a child it was a place with happy memories where we go twice a year and have a picnic to remember our Katelyn and the joy she brought into our lives. We are planning to do this for the rest of our lives as our family grows.

Katelyn was only with us for 18 weeks into the pregnancy but i love her just as much as i love my living Child Lucy (who was born 11 months to the day of Katelyn's birth).

I dont know what else to say other than that i am thinking of you and your husband and your beautiful boy Harrison.

Love Sarah xx