Hi Sarah

Thank you so much for thinking about me. The way you remember Katelyn is really touching and I am so grateful that you have shared your ideas with me. The trip to the beach was a failure!!! I had a shower, got dressed but just couldn't make it out the door and ended up curled up on my bed crying. My DH (I know what this means now) totally understood and we are going to try again later on in the week.

How did you ever gain the strengh to fall pregnant again? I really want to have children and my Ob/Gyn said that this happening again would be like being struck by lightning twice and that it is not disloyal to Harrison or his twin if we try again. I feel a competing battle within myself to grieve for Harrison but I also find myself wanting to fall pregant as soon as possible. . My Ob/Gyn said that for some women having another bubba as soon as possible is a way to heal and other women decide never to try again. I have booked an appointment with him as soon as he was available which isn't until 7 November. I really want to talk to him at the earliest possible opportunity but I also think that having the time to clear my thoughts will be good. Do I sound as confused as I feel?