you'll find people who'll read your threads here on BB and everyone is really supportive

i'm so sorry for your loss - you are right to want to deal with your grief in your own way - if that means talking (or typing as the case is here!), then talk away - no one can tell you what is right and wrong in dealing with your grief. i hope your family and the rest of your support network at home realise very soon that you need just as much support as your partner

your little boy is with so many other little angels now, watching over you - i know this is little comfort for you at the moment, but i know it to be true

take care - and know that you can vent on BB when you need to - so many people here have been through similar losses and understand what you're feeling.