thanks guys, it feels good to be able to go somewhere, i have two other babes at home to, my son b 4yrs and my daughter r 10 mths, im gratefull for them but i still feel a piece of me is missing, i havent been able to pick them up as my bleeding isnt right so im not allowed to do anything but play on the floor with them and even the cuddles i got there were so painful especially when my milk came in and they were crushing themselves against my breasts so ive not only been feeling useless to jesse but to bailey and ruby also