Oh honey, you can come in here and vent and rant and rave as much as you like, we've all had our dealings with the insensitive women/men in NICU, and all the other trials and tribulations that you are going through, and besides that, we are here as a shoulder to lean/cry on whenever you need us.

Believe me, if I lived near you, I would come over there tomorrow and mind the boys and give you my car so you could go up to the hospital and spend as much time there as you needed to. Can you ask MIL to come and sit with the boys while you go up there for a few hours? That might make you feel a little better? Is there anyone else that might be able to help you out for the day tomorrow?