Having you child in the NICU/SCN definitely brings out huge range of emotions ~ good and bad.

Not being able to hold my two tiny prems after birth I found extremely traumatic...especially as they where both emergency c-sections and I couldn't see them in the NICU straight away.
Leaving the hospital 3 days after they were born was one of the hardest things I have had to do. (As you would all know)
It was the best feeling to hold my DD on day 3 and she was not on breathing support.
I remember the horrid feeling when we received the phone call to say our son had NEC and his bowel had perforated and come straight in. Seeing the grim faces of the doctors...telling us he may not survive...asking my DH if he wanted him baptised (he is catholic I am not). The bag in cut into his side...the pain on my little mans face despite the high dose of morphine.
Then the wonderful day when the doctors had a little smile on their faces and said they thought he was over the worst of it.
Waiting 3 long weeks to get to hold my son was so hard...watching all the other parents come in a have cuddles and all I could do is touch him through a little door in a plastic box. It was magical to finally hold him...though a little hard as he was still in some pain...I cried through the whole short hold.
After 3 weeks seeing him finally get his first 'taste' of my BM through the tube (intravenous TPN before that).
His eyes where fused shut when born and when he first opened his eyes to look at me on day 5 or 6 it was just magical.
The precious memory of their first BF ~ both at 32 weeks gestation (5 weeks actual for DD and 7 weeks actual for DS) such a special moment.
Being able to give them their firsts baths, when they went into an open cot and the awesome day when they where wireless and tube free and you knew you where close to home.
The small of the gel wtill takes me straight back to the NICU, watching prem things on TV leaves me upset and emotion.
The bestest day was the day was when we could pick up our precious babies and walk out of that hospital and not look back. (9 weeks for dd and 15 weeks for ds)