Today I had my big scan. Everything was perfect, bubby's growing beautifully and the lady kept saying it was so well behaved as it kept getting in the perfect positions for her to measure everything. I know I should be over the moon right now, but I'm furious!!

DH was dead against finding out the sex of our bub. We had a surprise with DD and I just wanted something different this time. This maybe my last pregnancy so I wanted to know what it felt like knowing whats on the way. DH would not budge or give me any leeway what so ever! When the lady asked me I was fighting back tears as I desperately did want to know. I am the one that went through 4 months of m/s, I am carrying it for 9 months, I will be giving birth to it, breast feeding it, changing it... Why don't I get a say?! I just feel in the end it should be my decision, it that wrong of me??

With DD I really didn't mind either way if we found out so having a surprise was great, but when it came to the decision about pain killers during labour, once again DH was dead against it and even during the labour he told the MW not to give me an Epi even though I was screaming for one. I had a terrible delivery and sustained a 3rd deg tear from it all and went through 8 months of pain everyday... If I had an Epi I probably wouldn't have had to feel every litlte bit of that tear during the delivery and may have helped not feel every stitch I recieved. Once again I am not allowed the Epi.

Please don't get me wrong I really love DH but I can't help but feel pure anger towards him right now. Has anyone else felt like this??? I really hate feeling like this and treating him the way I am right now, I just can't help it. I can't stop crying and I am snapping at poor DD way too much atm and all I can think is he brought this upon all of us.

Thanks for the vent. Would love to hear from anyone who have had a similar thing with DH making decisions without so much as a thought for you.